Hi my name is…

Hi my name is Dana and I'm imperfect... is that a group? 🤣 I think maybe it used to be because I can finally accept it where I always had a hard time. And I am okay with it. I sit here thinking... waaayyyy to much, it's all I have had to do all week …

Tough day, tough week

It's been a tough week, that part I won't lie about. Today I went to the cemetery, it's been a while and it was needed. I spent a little longer than normal. I sat there on the ground and bawled my eyes out for a good 20 minutes. But, I talked with him,, and about …

Angry

Everytime I come here, I'm angry, I'm sad. And I talk to you and tell you. And you're the only one who knows, really. Even over 11 years later. Why did you have to leave? I know it wasn't your fault and I am not angry with you. But, you were the only one I …

Hope Floats

A wonderful movie. A wonderful saying. A wonderful thing. But, I also chuckle a little because I usually say in humor "Hope Floats, but so does a turd." I am sitting watching it after a touch time of finding out a friend passed, as I am alone while my dogs had better plans for me …

You got this

Do you ever feel like your all choked up on words, that just won't come out? Blinded by tears that just won't come out? You feel the tightness in your chest where all your emotions want to burst, but they can't, and while in this process you just feel so alone. And then suddenly, numbness …

Deaths

Tomorrow is certainly never promised. Deaths come so suddenly. This is not the first, and not the last of a friend I will have lost. May you rest in peace my friend. I will not be able to tell Nike Dale's at the door, or that Nora is here. 😭 The news is all still …

Whats your favorite Holiday?

Some say Halloween, Some say Chrismas, Some say Thanksgiving, Some even say Valentines Day. Christmas has not been my favorite for over 25 years, for personal reasons, but It was always one of my dad's favorite holidays, and in many wahs there are things I should appreciate it for as well. The meaning of Christmas …

Someone who freely shares feelings

Are you someone who freely shares your feelings? Do you do so and then get those feelings hurt? If you are, you can understand how much it sucks! How much you wish you could just turn it all off. Just become cold. I was never this person. But then it became 'safe'. It seem okay …

Hard to believe

It's hard to believe that 4 years ago today I opened my eharmony inbox and answered a message to a man whom is today my fiance. 4 years ago today, I remember saying what the hell let's login and see if anything there. I had just about given up on all the online dating mess …

Cuddling..

I’m just plain tired

I've been here alot these past 36 hours just trying to clear my thoughts. Not just in a need sleep kind of way, but emotionally and mentally. Yesterday I spent the day alone in the room,, my mind doing as it does,, over thinking everything and as to how I can 'fix it'. Today as …

Stop apologising..

I wish I could say that 'this gets me' or ' I really feel this' or whatever the temptation is these days. I have apologized my whole life for loving deeply, for being 'too sensitive', for hurting easily. I let things get the best of me and I am my own worst critic. When those …

All she ever wanted..

All she ever wanted was ..... to help and love those around her. ..... feel that same love in return. ..... to not anger everyone...... to give the best of herself. ..... to not disgust those around her. ..... to not just be heard but to feel like someone was listening. ..... to be understood. …