Is it possible..

To be unhappy and happy at the same time. To want to smile and bust in to tears? To need a hug but push everyone away? To overthink everything. I sit here on the verge of tears needing to be held, needing a hug, but my pride and independence will never admit it. I sit …

Changes

Change is hard. But admitting is even harder. As I sit and reflect on things I realize I need to make some changes. Not just for myself but for those in my life. To become a better woman to my partner, a better soon to be step mother. Change can be scary and I may …

Beautiful

When you start having dreams that your fiance tells you you are beautiful that way, there is obviously something wrong. I know my self esteem has been down as of late and I haven't been feeling well on top of it. The best part/or maybe the worst part is it seemed real, and then I …

Another year passed

Tomorrow marks the 11 year anniversary of my dad leaving us to help fill heaven. It seems like yesterday even to this day and I wait patiently for the 'It gets easier' part. It doesn't get easier, I just hold back tears a little better, know that he wouldn't want me to cry that he's …

Unhappy : part 2

I made a posta few weeks maybe a month ago and I quote: "And then, I just feel like everything has become stagnant, complacent around me, and like I said in another post before, like something is off.  Not just with me but those around me.    It is something I see not just in myself …

If she could change him..

He's her everything, her knight and shining tin foil, her love, her completeness when she thought she was complete. If you were to ask her if you could change him what would you change? Well first off, you can't change anyone in a real sense. But in a fairytale, Disney world even the list to …

Kind words

Is a kind word or a compliment so hard to do anymore? Has that become Nil and void? There's so much hate in the world these days. Shootings, killings, careless 'accidents', death, suicides. Sometimes a kind word can go a long way. Whether it be from a friend, family, your significant other or your children. …