Intimacy

Two lovers engaged in foreplay. A touch of fingers on your skin. Opening channels of connection. Begging for more. Needs, emotions, desires. The intimate closeness. Every inch of your body screams. Heart racing. Trust opening. Raw and honest connections. Open and present feelings. Tension-reducing, body relaxing. Mental & physical orgasms. All the releases in your …

Save me from this bad dream

Can you save me from this bad dream in the world I can't control? Can you take the pain away that won't let go? Why does it have to sting so bad? Caught in this bad dream... Feels like I am frozen... No where to run from here... The walls are closing in... Hard to …

Lies lead to hurt

What do you to when not even 24 hours after someone has apologized for being sneaky and lying that they do it again? Especially, when you want so bad to trust this person and continue to try to. You want to believe the sorry and it won't happen again, each time hurting more and more. …

Is Sex important in a relationship?

I did not write this and do not own rights to it. It was just a good relationship read I came across and thought I would share for wordpressers alike who like to read on improving. While I have my thoughts on the topic, and will keep it short.. as far as yes it's important …

Just feeling sorry for yourself

What do you do when all you are trying to do is balance things. To do right in everyone's eyes to be told to stop feeling sorry for yourself? How is such an unselfish act.. selfish? What do you do from here? Stop trying to make sure everyone is happy and balanced? Stop being yourself? …

As we approach 11 years

As we approach the 11 year mark of dad passing away, I think back to the day he adopted me. To the dayhe was supposed to adopt me and we had to find my father first to approve it. To all he went through to find this man. And to the fact that he didn't …

Are you enough, or are you to much?

When you battle depression and anxiety two questions that alternate in your mind are "Am I enough?" And "Am I to much?" "Am I enough?" You are your hardest critic, no matter what you do, no matter what you say and no matter who you are, you always feel your doing it wrong or not …

Unhappy, Depression or just plain burned out..

I hate the feeling whatever it is.  I can't get motivated to do much other than sit and think with racing thoughts of everything going on, in constant worry for the worst to happen in what IS good in life.  I can sit and write a blog about the love of my life and love …

More than a memory

Sometimes I love Facebook memories, sometimes I hate them. Today a memory appeared from this day last year, only a couple weeks after restarting antidepressants again. My weight was okay, since then with added medication, stress and so on.. not so much. I saw the post and wanted to cry. I don't know why it …

You’re the reason…

You're the reason my heart melts. You're the reason for the light in my eyes. You're the reason I love deeply. You're the reason for my smile. You're the reason for my laughter. You're the reason for getting out of bed everyday. You're the reason I push myself harder to be a better person. You're …

The trip

They take you on a fancy trip out of the country, you arrive and the airport and Uber to your hotel. An exquisite hotel. And just after you step on the elevator after you have checked in they explain they not only don't love you. They are no longer in live with you and haven't …

Misaligned

I don’t get this feeling as much as I used to but when I do it makes up for it I guess. Just a feeling that everything is misaligned and out of sorts. Like everything that matters that I want close is a magnet, except it’s pulling away instead of being drawn to. A feeling …

If I could write a letter

It may end up more as a book, maybe that why I give him the texts daily, maybe thats why I drive him nuts in a bad way.. 🤣 If I could write him a letter showing my love, appreciation and all I wish he could see in life, maybe he would understand and read …