1st & 10

And I am not talking Michigan or Lions football.... I will say this is the first year in 10.  And I don't mean in football.  This is the first year in 10 that Thanksgiving did not completely mess with me and bring me down.   I missed dad but I was very mindful of my fiance …

Not my blood

We don't share the last name, and while she may not be mine, I love her just the same.  She doesn't have my eyes, but we share the pain together when she cries.  She may not be my blood, but I will love her through and through. She may not be my daughter, but my …

Why am I thankful for him?

Its the arm around my waist from behind as he hugs me, that makes me feel safe. Its the spark in his eyes when he looks at me that tells me he's happy at best. Its the playfulness and when we both laugh together. Its when we can agree to disagree, or atleast talk out …

Happy Thanksgiving

This year I don't want to do the typical cliche of Thanksgiving. While I am definitely thankful for my family, my fiance and his family, my friends and coworkers, and all things in life. This year I am thankful for life, every breath I take. Looking back on the years this past couple years I …

Bothered..

I can't sleep. Fear is in me. You hear the words, 'I don't like being asked if I want her here of if I want you two together married'.  My mind says that the only reason someone wouldn't want to be asked these things is if they feared their answer would be hurtful.  While I …

I want to know…

While what I do know is I am sure he gets uber annoyed at my silly questions and my questions that seem as insecurities. I know he gets annoyed with my anxieties and worries. But its only because I care and because I love hard. And because there are things I always want and need …

Current mood: anxiety

I just wanna cuddle. When I lay with him, it feels like I am safe. I feels like no one can hurt me. Its a warm embrace. Feeling his muscles around my waist, and my body being pulled closer to him. The feeling is indescribable. It eases my worries, fears and anxieties. When they say …

Hate

Its not a word I use easily or freely.  But I will say if there is anything I hate, its being mistreated, disrespected, devalued and treated as I f I am ignorant. Most of all by those I love and claim to love me too.  Especially when they are old enough to know better. I …

November 10, 2017

one last chance for love

‘Best I can’

"Best I Can" Art of Dying Tonight I feel like the world won't miss meSo much to say but there's no one listeningIf we're alone are we all together in that I threw a penny in a well for wishingand prayed for all the things I think I'm missingA little time is all I really …

Empathy, selflessness and sensitivness.

If you take the time to know me, you will know and see that I am a person with a big heart. I am caring, empathetic and sensitive. All of which tend to be a vice of mine. No matter how strong willed I try to always end up wearing a heart on my sleeve, …

Sparks (Poem)

There once was that spark in his eyes, Like what you see when there are fireflies. There once was a warmth within the heart, And that feeling of not wanting to ever be apart. There once was a time where an intimate touch, Didn't feel like it was asking for too much. She tries to …