Today’s my lucky day

The day I get some added sleep from my friend, anesthesia. She's become a dear friend of mine it seems, over the past couple months. This will be the 4th time, except for another reason. In an hour I will be headed for Pre-op and in 2 from there it will be surgery time. I …

Reoccurring objects

Do you ever have a dream that seems to have a reaccuring object yet you don't know what or where is is appearing from? The last few nights my mind slows down enough to put me to sleep but not enough to stop the dreams, some bad, some just strange. And they say you don't …

S-T-R-E- double S

The last couple day have been stressful as it is with work, to the po I nt that I disappeared with out a trace last night around 8:15 PM, turned out the light and went to bed. Now that I wind down from a 9 and a half hour work day the nervous jitters kick …

Everything or barely there…

When we are young (yes and dumb) we look for someone who will rock our world.. we look for someone to share life with. How do I know. I WAS THERE! I married for all the wrong reasons, everyone liked him, despite his lies. We had spent 9 years together so it must be, and …

A new day..

Today was a new day, as I try to pull myself above this cloud. I managed to stay busy between 5 phone calls with the doctors office and hospital, and getting all the co-pays pre registration and follow up made For Wednesday surgery. Between that, work and my earbuds in all day, it stayed at …

What do you to when people are pulling away..

Just some thoughts on the topic.. I have tried many of these even when I shouldn't have tried at all with people.. these are just a few examples I re-evaluated Do you pull them back, and show your love and commitment to whatever type of relationship it is? I know I always want to, this …

You can do it alone but you should never have to

I have concurred it before, by myself, and even for myself. When you go through a depressive state you remember you are strong enough to get through it alone, but know you are not alone and you don't have to do it alone. There are people who love you and are there for you. I …

A work-in-progress

Maybe you don’t need a reinvention. Maybe you don’t need to change your life. Maybe you are not seven steps, a move, a job, a goal, a relationship away from the person you’re meant to be. Maybe you’re not being held back by what you don’t have, but by not appreciating what you already do. …

When she tells you she needs you

When she tells you she needs you, needs to be loved, needs help around the house, or whatever her needs may be, do not take it in light. If she's a strong independent person sharing her needs over her wants is a hard thing to do, for she never really asks for anything. She asks …

A better woman

I need to be a better woman for those I can't imagine life without. But, I guess today is not the day.  The day started waking up in a depressed state, really just needing to be loved a little harder & a little louder and feeling isolative.  I put on m ybig girl pants and …

Do you ever have days…

Do you ever have days where you feel like your tear ducts are going to burst? Do you ever have days where you need to be loved a little harder? Today is one of those days, I just want to crawl back in bed and throw a blanket over my head until it all goes …

Anyone else OVER 2020?

I am over it. It seems if it can go to shit it will. I feel like my sanity and ability to handle is being tested. Between my back issues and the doctors appointments, we add yesterday's event. As I go in for an IUD change, the doctor could not get it removed. It was …

7 things Men & Women need in a relationship

When it comes to what women need in a relationship, men and women are at an emotional stalemate. We feel something lacking in our relationships. The majority of modern men aren’t able to penetrate their women fully, nor are women fully opening to their men. Women aren’t opening because men aren’t giving them what they …

Heaven is getting full

It was with a saddened heart that I laid back down into bed at 2:45 this morning after the dog woke me up to go out. As she did her thing, I checked the notifications on my phone. I had tagged my cousin's husband (whom she is separated from) in one of those goofy facebook …

Call it what you will..

I call a funk. Didn't have one or two dreams last night, my mind was on a crazy loop.  It was mainly everything on my mind from financial to step parenting, to my relationship, and it went on all night. So today being exhausted and putting in OT was an added.. bonus? But hey, one …