When you feel you can’t do anything right..

You try, you don't try and all in the same you are just being who you are. Everything seems like a failure when you do it. At the end of the day all you want is everyone to feel happy and loved. At peace with the day and with all that's going on, to do …

More than a feeling?

I try to chalk it all up to being a little down and out lately myself, trying to be selfless, trying to keep on keeping in. But, feeling more and more lonely. When you have conversations with people less than 12 hours ago regarding somewhere you need to be, followed by 45 minutes before you …

Another day

Its become a part of my daily routine it seems. While the pain has become debilitating not just physically but emotionally, Dr. K has done far more testing to rule out as well as get to the route cause of making sure its not more than just 2 bulging discs and severe compression in my …

Tired of life..

‘Tired of life’ it’s a statement I fought myself saying tonight. Not in a ‘I am unhappy with my life or I am suicidal way. I love the life I am living. I love my fiancé and his daughter and couldn’t imagine life without them. And yes in honesty I have weighted the pros and …

Would be lying if I didn’t say..

To say that it didn’t feel good to get compliments today while at the doctor would be a lie. With the way I have been feeling about myself, my pain and health, my insecurities, my partner toward me, and so on.. it was good to hear an outsiders view. Even if one was a woman.. …

Burnout

I’m burnt out. Burnt out on the job, especially after today at 136 chats done, having another chat agent telling me to slow down because I make them look bad. And telling another in a not so playful mood, FU, (In a small daily group chat where we just vent and babble) even though he …

On to another challenge..

When you have been in physical pain as long as I have you try to adapt. Migraines, leg pain, back pain, neck, all over. I guess the worst of it was after I suffered the 5 car accident in 2006 which the doctors wanted to do surgery and I opted out due to the odds …

Tell Yourself You’re Beautiful

I hope you tell yourself that you are beautiful- and I hope you tell yourself that you are smart, too.Tell Yourself You’re Beautiful

Who knew this small package would become my heart?

Three years ago I got this little bit who was no more than 8 weeks old and Would sleep inside my ballcaps. At the time I was skeptical because I wasn’t a ‘small dog person’. I was in the process of being forced to re-home my two dogs, Gordie and Sadie. Gordie was a Staffordshire …

When Life hands you Rotten Tomatoes instead of Lemons

  This was me, 4 years ago from today on 7/1/2016, I was wearing a smile, I was going out to smash some pins at the bowling alley with a friend, and then, the night came to and end, as so did my life.  Well so it seemed at the time. It was a consequence …