Hearts..

My mom informed me her blood pressure has been off. So last night she made an appointment and was scheduled for the cardiologist first thing this morning. She had a heart attack about 6 years ago. Stents were placed. As most of you know I lost my dad to a heart attack. Her heart rate …

When you love someone..

When you find that someone that you love and find yourself doing nothing but hoping to spend the rest of your life with, you begin to learn more about not only them but yourself.  You learn more about how to communicate. You also learn that NOTHING in life, and I mean NOTHING is ever going …

Don’t be the dog..

If you have a dog or a cat the you have a dog or a cat that is a needy little bitch.. haha. If you find yourself picking up these bad habits take a step back, get in your kennel, I mean go to your room, or simply consult with your vet, erm.. I mean …

Reminders…

Some Facebook memories really suck. And while this one still sucks it is also a reminder that we never truly know what a persons struggles are. I still remember this day and the events as they happened. To think I may have even been the last friendly face he spoke to or who took the …

Which way does it go..

We were watching Stranger things, season one with the kiddo, the other night and a magazine came across from the 80’s and I caught myself saying.. that was a real magazine! Whatever happened to them, now it’s tabloids and cooking. Home and garden. Things people clip and keep. Today’s society, ways and so forth are …

Much needed..

This weekend has been much needed and over due for some R&R but also productive. My fiancé and I got up together, had our coffee and started the day. We headed over to Dallas North Aquarium and got my birthday present, early. Got the full set up for a 45 gallon tank. Stand, tank, canister …

Dream interpretation

As some of you may have read I had a pretty messed up dream the other night. So over the course I have been doing some research on it. I don’t typically do so but this one disturbed me that much I suppose. I could probably search forever on it but across many sites here …

More and more..

More and more as of late, I feel completely and utterly unattractive and even more in a sense and most importantly, unattractive to my partner. Maybe it’s just been my self esteem lately. Maybe it’s been the distance between us with our stress levels. IDK. But I do know I don’t feel very desirable at …

Zombies

‘In your head, In your head’ if that’s not an understatement. I try to stay positive in stressful times and all I can think is close to or negative. I had a dream of dying and watching me die, as well as my dad.. Maybe that’s Fathers Day near. I feel like my fiancé is …

What Causes Nightmares?

It is said that Stress, Anxiety, Sleep Deprivation, & Trauma are all leading causes to nightmares in adults.  I haven't had any Trauma that I am aware of but here lately I have been having nightmares every few nights or so. Last night I died in my nightmare.  I was in a car somewhere, I …

Happy Mothers Day to all

Whether you are a mom to be, a mom, a step mom, a fur baby mom or an adoptive mom.. you are a mom. You have helped raise a child. And while every day should be Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Grandparents day.. you deserve A Day! There has never been nor will there ever be …

Beautiful Crazy

I love this song. To everyone that has called me beautiful on both days I needed it and even days I didn’t thank you. No matter ho much confidence we have or how much we love ourselves, we all have days we could use a reminder from the outside world. I generally just take a …

It’s been a while

It’s been a while since I have woken with a racing mind at 3am, I’ve been up an hour now.. so now I write.. as I am unable to go back to sleep. And it races on everything big to little. From the video I watched before bed and hearing letters Johnny Cash wrote to …

I need to change something.. but what?

As we all know... I am my own worst critic. And for as long as the kiddo has been in full time and by full time and quarantined you would think there would be some changes in behavior at this point. So I ask myself what am I doing personally, what can I change? We …

When the right person comes along

I do not own this, it is a reblog When The Right Person Comes Along by Thought Catalog The right person will not just see you for who you are, but they will feel you too. They will feel the love you have for them long before you tell them. They will have felt it in your …