Who am I?

Who am I when Your not looking? Just a woman, nothing perfect, nothing special. Im pretty much an open book once you get past the wall. i have had my run of bad luck, my run of good luck, I've lived the rockstar life. And everyday I am right where I am meant to be.

Keep pushing, don’t look back.

Found another notebook, there were alot of ripped pages. . This was written Oct 4 2012. And now the paper burns I showed so much love I showed compassion. But, life itself and Your love was rationed. We were no good For each other. But knew we'd Never want another. The game became of Cat …

Love/hate

Its like a love hate with all thats going on health wise. I love the therapist I have and my primary doctor. I had a great hand surgeon and pulmonary doctor. But when it comes to the bigger problems that have been going on for 7 months that have not been related to COPD Diagnosis, …

Tiggers, Or is it Triggers

I wish it was a story of whinny the pooh. Ah Triggers, I make notes in my head of my depression, now of the seizures and the other stuff my PCP manages for me.  I st at home all week, all day, all night.  It can get depressing, the sit and wait game is depressing, …

Freedom From Complexity….

OUR MINDS, THE BIGGEST EVIL OF ALL. We fight it, we try to shut it off, we let it run wild, it can trick us and we can let others take it over really. We always here “If you don’t like, it change it Right?” I have watched, and yes been there people complain that …

Lets be honest

Lets be honest.. When is enough enough. From the outside I look like the one people love, the full of life, funny and loving person. And I really am. The trade mark of Dana's tongue, the care of others and giving to others less fortunate like ALS, cancer and heart disease. So, what an I …

My Walk Center – Walk to Defeat ALS®

My Walk Center - Walk to Defeat ALS®. This walk will be in honor of my Gramps, my dads dad.  Before this walk there will also be one for AHA that I am doing for my mom and dad. You can find me on either, one is ALS Ninjas, The Other is AHA Ninjas. And …

Myoclonic epileptic seizures

So the first neurologist was a whack. She has been fired and I got a referral for a new one. so heres my place to note whats going on with myself, a place for me to reflect and gather all that was told to me. I don't Don't share much detail hear in public as …

August 16, 2014

was a great day for a BBQ and I owed rick one for getting me to the hospital a few days prior.  Jamie came by as it will be her last weekend with out her sister who lives with her.  We hung out at the pool, grilled had some cold ones, hell I even tried …

Don’t judge me..

So therapy today was all over the place for me, from emails of from my ex, lies, thought of some things of the past, my health and frustrations and depression of all of it, and talks of all the good thing the past few weeks, and more to come. I was told that my ex …

Feeling alone?

         

RIP Robin Wiliams

The 4th was a day no one will forget, last year. Today, marks a year since I was challenged to be put back out in the world to fight and not give up. Now I will be honest I take each day one day at a time. It is the inly way I can fight, …

making me think..

Friends, what are they for? The last two days has been alot of thinking, yesterday being a year since a selfish event. Many friends talked to me, many know I still have days.  Today a friend of mine who is a musician told me he wanted to use a line from what I wrote yesterday …

Poem: The Punisher

 The punisherShe lived with a punisherHe could not be seen.But if some bad appeared.He became mean.He's stepped inside her mind,He took over her soul. He knew she was An easy target.Her abuse and blameShe was tender hearted.Slowly he sits her downLeaning up against the wall.Bit by bit he severs,Skin open for all. The blood slowly …

On this day… ONE YEAR AGO

One year ago today is the night no one ever wants to see again. This was the night I went through with my planned suicide attempt. The plan was once alone to do it, There was a slight argument that night with my boyfriend that I started, he left to cool off, not knowing if …