Write your Chapter

Each morning is a new day, a new chapter in your book of life. You are in control. Don't let idiots ruin your day. This is your story so write it. Write the bad and destroy the page if you must to rid of it in your mind and soul.  We all know life isn't …

Tigers at Rangers

Sitting at the game with my good friend Rick and talking to my cousin in Detroit as the rangers play the tigers. Its a nice cool summer night. Last year I didn't get to attend the series. In fun, I sent her 4 souvenir cups from a Rangers game. She had to have all 4 …

What am I becoming?

I feel empty, I feel cold. So many lies told to me in the last 3 months alone, and hurtful, hateful ones at that. I shouldn't care and should take it for what it is and what these people show me they are. But I did care. Now I sit mainly with a life of …

Save somebody

I saved many

Fathers day

Fathers Day I separated the two as one was about my dad and I and this is drafted for my friends who are dads and who have lost dads. So I sit.. And I think.. And that is never any good at all.. So I sit and I write to my blog.. A little better. …

Better made

.. One wish for the rest of my life..What would it be? Everyone would think if I could have one thing in life it would probably be kids. Nope, if I could have one thing back its my hero, my first true love, my knight and shining armor of my life.. My dad. Another "holiday" …

Two faced people need not apply

If there is one thing I hate, its two-faced people. Not sure if it pisses me off or hurts more that I trust people, that they straight out lie to me. Its cool, find out who your friends are. Don't tell me you hate someone, glad they are out of my life, how you dont …

Take my pain

I promise Im not a complainer. Those who know all I have going on can be the first to tell you and even those are very few because I'm a private kinda person. I'd rather be my goofy unicorn talking, ninja talking, BS talking self facebook and my private stuff on my new blog Just …

Not where I want to be

Miserable feeling - had a whole body muscle jerk episode last night, since then back is killing me to move. About in tears when lifted arm over my head a minute ago. Wont to that again. The worst is when on the outside you look fine and healthy and on the inside you feel like …

Hold on and letting go

For many, many years I held on until I could no longer do so and realized I trusted words of those that brought me back to places only have the same thing push me out. I held on to relationships when I should have let go so long ago.   I held on because they …

These are the days of our lives

06/05/14 I forced myself for a daily walk after last night of drinking a little too much Im sure. But then had 2 friend meet me somewhere safe and sit with me a while and relax me with a place that had baseball, something just didnt' feel right and I was in fear I would …

When Im alone..

.. There is never a dull moment.. So imagine when Im with a group of friends.. Haha I swear sitting alone is dangerous.. I can always blame the cats.. I think they are the reason for the apple sized bruise on my back calf.. I go outside to sit in my chair for a smoke.. …

I got this $h!t

Hello what is becoming my medical diary of frustrations.. Well lets see.. Its never ending.. Now I am told My whole nervous system and muscles are being attacked by fibromyalgia. Dr said I am in fact having black outs and not falling asleep at work. Im on the verge of losing it. It has been …

Go and hide your Crazy

Its what I am, not who I am.. and even crazy is not the word.. its an illness.  Depression is an illness a disorder, Something that you can't see but its there deep, but sometimes I feel like its going to make me crazy.  Right now its with All these doctors appointments, tests and so …