Its all winning again..

*graphic image warning* Cuts over cuts from the other day.. On the plus side it seems to only like my left arm. The skins so dry from gauze and well theres not much area left.. So it more so just left dry marks on the skin. I left to go for a drive as the … Continue reading Its all winning again..

Poem: the fight

The heart pumps the blood. The same blood my cuts flood. Putting up a long Hard fight. To feel my heart just get tight. Giving in to make things work. But in the end i do No right, Im the jerk. Giving im to all i am, losing all self control, Fighting a fight, sacrificing … Continue reading Poem: the fight

Poem: The punishers war

Bloods dripping In the sink, on the floor. Each cut runs every Direction, the punishers war. Fill with blame Guilt and sadness. It helps him to continue the madness. You cant take his toys He will always find something. Anything to punish And blood it will bring. He pushes her away As he takes over. … Continue reading Poem: The punishers war

Session done

A lot of tangents covered, holidays, relationships, punishment, the head and heart fighting each other and how last thursday my head won but with mental status and unsafe my heart won. But how when he came back he wanted to talk when I was in no state to do so. How Im constantly told I … Continue reading Session done

The before therapy rant

So tomorrows thanksgiving.. And I wish everyone and yours a very special day. I dont believe we should give thanks just one day a year but every breathing minute. I don't normally rant here I keep it private.. Neither my aunt nor my grandma has called to invite me and I know they do it … Continue reading The before therapy rant

Keep believing in yourself

There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be, ....that's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better. There are times when people disappoint you and let you down, but those are the times when you must remind yourself … Continue reading Keep believing in yourself

The surrendered Life

The Surrendered Life (an excerpt) Marianne Williamson To relax, to feel the love in your heart and keep to that as your focus in every situation--that's the meaning of spiritual surrender.  It changes us.  We become deeper, more attractive people. In Zen Buddhism, there's a concept called "zen mind," or "beginner's mind."  They say that … Continue reading The surrendered Life

Reflect, Learn, Grow

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it may be they have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance. They may be in your life to support you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. A difficult person can challenge you to grow in patience, forgiveness, and/or understanding. Some people may test your … Continue reading Reflect, Learn, Grow