silence speaks loudest

Silence heals a broken heart.. Loving ones self builds and life moves with or without you so either enjoy the ride or miss the bus.

Someday is to late…

Someday you’ll cry for me like I cried for you. Someday you’ll miss me like I missed you. Someday you’ll need me like I needed you. Someday you’ll love me but I won’t love you. Someday you’ll need me like I needed you. Someday you'll find out that you love a person who loved you …

Finding out your only human

Its a hard thing to face sometimes.. Facing things like illness, depression, life; love, broken hearts and souls. Each day is just a road emotional traffic.  - Always trying to change the world, but not knowing where to start to only fail when you see your not super woman. -Knowing your old enough to know …

what can I do?

Even through the fears, even through the tears.. I put a face on for you a face thats still true. The heart hides feelings the eyes show healing.

Don’t know how (not to love you)

I think i just dont know how not to love in general. my hearts of gold but it turned so cold. It changed me as I gave all my love to have it not be enough. Finally the warmth comes back and its feeling the love again. Im back to the girl with the heart …

The best gifts are free.. screw Black Friday

The best things in life aren’t things.  So next time you want to give yourself a gift, save your money, and consider gifting yourself one of the following instead: The freedom to be unapologetically YOU. – Wearing a mask wears you out.  Faking it is fatiguing.  The most arduous activity is pretending to be what you …

whats in a best friend?

I have a hard time trusting for many reasons... But I do have a few who I trust whole heartedly... My female friends are like sisters to me. Always there If I need them.. Standing by me through my back and forths of my previous relationship, knowing when I need a laugh or a cry. …

I choose….

‎" Your thoughts become your choices, your choices become your habits, and your habits become your lifestyle. If you want to change your lifestyle, change your thoughts." ~Unknown Im beautimous and I know it! and a little tarded.. but Im me 🙂 Life is what you make it and I choose happiness and goofiness. Nothing …

Holidays…

Ive never been very cheerful during the holidays especially after losing my dad.  I tried for a while to really be in the christmas spirit for my step daughters, the first year I decorated they left though to go to their moms while I am at work.  This  year I have a whole new surrounding …

Things I consider before I give up

If you feel like you’re at the end the road with nowhere to go, realize you are lying to yourself.  You have imprisoned yourself in your own mind by telling self-defeating stories – stories about what your life should be like, what you should have already accomplished, and so forth.  By doing this you’ve created …

What is the quality of your intent?

Certain people have a way of saying things that shake us at the core. Even when the words do not seem harsh or offensive, the impact is shattering. What we could be experiencing is the intent behind the words. When we intend to do good, we do. When we intend to do harm, it happens. …

This actually gave me a tear.. MARRIED OR NOT, YOU SHOULD READ THIS …

 “When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I …

on this day 11/17/12

Today I write as my mind goes the words hit paper.. Throughout life: I've loved, I've been lied to, I've hurt, I've lost, I've missed, I've trusted, I've been betrayed, I've made mistakes. But most of all, I've learned. And with that I apply and hope for a beautiful future ahead. I am keeping positive.. moving …

Know that you are perfect right now

You can completely transform any relationship, no matter what it's like right now. Every single relationship you have is a reflection of how you feel inside about you. You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings. Every relationship you have and every interaction …

Through bloodshot eyes…

Through blooddshot eyes, the tears I can not disguise.I take my time and run and hide.The tiredness fills my mind, the pain my body and soul.No sleep for days, my minds a haze.I just want this all to end, to be normal again.Life and health stress has taken its toll.I feel like a burden, I …